Thursday, November 9, 2017

What is prayer?

I think prayer is calling out to God in desperation. When we feel weak and empty, and prayer is being with God, so He can fill us up again. I think prayer is comfort, knowing that even when it’s quiet and you can’t hear anything, someone is listening. Someone who cares and knows you better than anyone. Often, we come to God with requests, questions, or hopeful murmurs about our families or jobs. Sometimes it’s just being with Him, being still and present with His Spirit. I think God loves these moments. I think He loves the doubtful people, the devoted people and the angry people alike. I imagine God giddy with excitement when He hears our cries, anxious to be by our side.
Prayer to me feels nourishing and satisfying, like indulging in a warm cup of soup on a snowy winter evening. It’s healing all the broken pieces and bringing peace to all the chaos inside our hearts. Prayer is warm, it’s calming; prayer is unraveling the messy ball of yarn, and knowing the finished project will be beautiful. You’re in the hands of the Creator, and you’re His favorite, so He will take care of you and hold you closely.
Prayer is reflection and thanks. I come to God rambling about what I want and need, what I feel, what’s happening in my life and the lives of others. Then I am quickly reminded that the people I’m praying about are in my life to begin with.  And the situations I’m praying about will make me stronger and more refined because I must go through them. I’m left with a lot of unknowns, sometimes nothing feels different, but I am always thankful.
Writing this, although everything I’m saying is true, what I’m portraying about prayer looks very pretty. It is beautiful, yes, to be able to have a conversation and active relationship with God. But to be clear, it’s also very confusing sometimes. It’s hard to listen, it’s hard to be still, and it’s frustrating when we come to God with an anxious heart and all we want is answers. God doesn’t always respond when or HOW we want Him to. I don’t always know what I even want to say to Him. It’s messy because we are human, but just knowing He’s there is enough for me. 

Psalm 107:28-30
Then they cried out to the LORD in their trouble, and he brought them out of their distress. He stilled the storm to a whisper; the waves of the sea were hushed. They were glad when it grew calm, and he guided them to their desired haven.

Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
My little angel

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